Perfectionism, Get Thee Behind Me

This is the year when I became a big fan of experimentation. I’m hanging out in the Library with the Bloggess, giving myself permission to screw up, and embracing the possibility of failure by making smart mistakes. The big thing is, I’ve finally been able to give up these paralyzing ideas about how “perfect” something has to be before I release it upon the world – and it’s opened the door for a lot of experimentation.

Don’t get me wrong; I still pretty much fall into the camp of ‘perfectionist’. I’m certainly not advocating what horse people call “barn blindness,” where it’s impossible for you to see faults in your work simply because it’s yours. But I have found that I really can’t judge my own work when I put it down and declare it finally done. I can come back to it a year or two later and see it with a fresh eye – and am often surprised by lovely things I didn’t realize were there – but right then, I’m usually way to close to give it any critical analysis. And sick and tired of the whole thing to boot.

I had to learn to just let it go. And to put the work out there, as opposed to putting it back on the shelf, because the perspective you get from other people’s opinions is invaluable.

This is just a long-winded pontification to explain why I decided to write some experiments in sci-fi serial fiction. I have two WIPs right now that might be classed as “literary fantasy” – they’re not about the story, per se, they’re more about the people in the story (hence the addition of the ‘literary’ tag). They’re going to be stand-alone books and I want to do them up right and proper – which, for me, means starting at about $1500 each for a developmental edit from an editor I’ve found whom I truly want to work with. I also want to have some support networks in place in terms of marketing experience and the dreaded ‘author platform,’ so I have maybe a tiny bit of reach when they finally do launch. (HI TWITTER, I LOVE YOU.)

In addition to the novels, I’m slowly plugging away at a picture book I’ve had in the drawer, like, forever. (Since 2005, at least). It’s not a quick project. Each illustration takes from 6 to 20 hours to finish, and there are 12 of them in total. Plus cover. Plus hand-drawn type pages. I’m done exactly one and a half illustrations right now.

I kind of realized that even though I’ve got some movement on the ‘doing work and putting it out there’ front, I’m still falling short in a few areas:

  • Most successful e-book (genre) authors recommend having at least one series on the go. A series can really put the power of free promos to work for you, and I’ve seen more than one author say their career didn’t really take off until they had around 6 to 10 books out.
  • Finding my plot can go very slowly because I’m a died-in-the-wool pantser. I need to work on this. And I have to work on it with a fun, almost throw-away project, because if it’s something I start to care too much about, I go down the labyrinthine path of “not good enough, do it over again” instead of sprinting for the finish line.
  • Other writing experiments. I wanted a framework (read: world-building) that I could use for short stories, for serial fiction, for segments with different points of view, or to follow different character’s stories. Something that might appeal to a wide audience. Hugh Howey’s WOOL and some of Neil Gaiman’s short stories were inspirations in this area, as were television series such as The Twilight Zone and serial pulp fiction (detective novels and such) from the early 20th century.
  • Cash. I make a pretty good living as a freelance designer/writer/editor but we’ve got a kid on the way so I can’t pull $1500 from general resources right now to pay for a developmental edit. I want to put something out that I can practice selling, and maybe make some money with, which could go towards creating more books.

So, back in February, I broke out of ‘long story/serious writer’ mode and wrote a short story, “Room 202“, which I posted on Wattpad and which has been accepted by BlackHeartMagazine.com (pending publication on their website). Then I started writing.

Thus far, I must say, I am fairly pleased with the results. I started with a formula I found in The Fiction Factory by John Milton Edwards (aka William Wallace Cook). Edwards was a pulp serial writer who wrote fiction under various pen names for magazines in the early 1900′s. The formula he relates is: 16 chapters, 5 pages per chapter (serial novels being published one chapter at a time), and three such ‘nickel novels’ (each complete in itself) combined to make one full novel which sold for 10 cents.

Using this formula I banged out a series of three plot lines which could each be released individually as novellas, or combined later to make one omnibus novel. Although I’m not quite hopeless at following a plot outline, I still add a lot as I write. This will probably never change, but I’m learning to refine my process.

Once I have the bones down, I write a chapter out in full and then ‘brainstorm’ questions about the part that comes next. Mostly it has to do with better defining my character motivations and trying to plug plot holes – ie, if X is true in the framework of my story, then why didn’t they do Y at this point? Writing by hand is perfect for this function – it’s sort of a free association session and I tend to generate a lot of new ideas during it. Because, honestly? The first plots I come up with are really pretty boring. I think that’s why plotting was just not working for me before – it was so boring I ended up not wanting to write the book. But as a bare-bones starting point, well, I can live with that. Once I get excited about what I’m brainstorming, I write another chapter out in full and repeat.

The premise is turning out to be kind of fun – for some reason I decided to do ‘soft’ science fiction, with a slight horror twist á la Lovecraft. It’s set in the nearish future (give or take 100 years) and it all takes place inside a building that is also an interface for a modified version of time travel. I’m creating excerpts of classified files, code snippets, and agent manuals for brief exposition at the beginning of each chapter.

It’s called The Framework Codex and I’ll be posting chapters on Wattpad as they’re written. I hope you’ll join me there. I have a pretty healthy attitude towards criticism (I like to think so, anyway), so feel free to tell me if it sucks. And if it doesn’t suck, feel free to share it with a friend ;)

Here’s to my little experiment. *Clink*. What are YOU working on right now?

Read the first 2 chapters of The Framework Codex »

Story Comes in Many Forms

Jules over at 7Imp recommended this video and oh boy am I glad I took the time to check it out. It’s one of the most beautiful examples of storytelling I’ve ever seen. Both the song and the animation are top notch, and, just like the best illustrated stories, the words and pictures each tell a powerful story that is related to the whole but don’t entirely repeat themselves.

The song is by the Villagers and the illustration is by Adrien Merigeau. This brief explanation of the video is on the Villager’s website:

Nothing explains the film better than the film itself. Nonetheless, here is a concise and vaguely pretentious synopsis: The film charts the development of a young man as he navigates his way through an impressionistic landscape in search of an elusive monster which is intent on destroying his childhood home. Lost and confused for the most part, he nonetheless uncovers the beast; a creature whose origins are both terrifying and liberating.

Albert Hirschman

“An Original Thinker of Our Time,” from NYBooks.com:

Albert Hirschman, who died late last year, was one of the most interesting and unusual thinkers of the last century….

Hirschman is principally known for four remarkable books. The most influential, Exit, Voice, and Loyalty(1970), explores two ways to respond to unjust, exasperating, or inefficient organizations and relationships. You can leave (“exit”) or you can complain (“voice”). If you are loyal, you will not exit, and you may or may not speak out….

Finally, The Rhetoric of Reaction (1991) is a study of the reactionary’s tool kit, identifying the standard objections to any and all proposals for reform. The objections are “perversity” (the reform will make the problem even worse), “futility” (the reform will do nothing to solve the problem), and “jeopardy” (the reform will endanger some hard-won social gain). Hirschman shows that these objections are stupefying, mechanical, hyperbolic, and often wrong….

Hirschman’s work changes how you see the world…

Who else would publish an essay in The American Economic Review exploring the “overproduction of opinionated opinion,” questioning the value of having strong opinions, and emphasizing the importance of doubting one’s opinions and even one’s tastes?…

Hirschman was delighted by paradoxes, unintended consequences (especially good ones), the telling detail, inventories of actual practices (rather than big theories), surprises, and improvisation. In his view, “history is nothing if not farfetched.” He invented the term “possibilism,” meant to draw attention to “the discovery of paths, however narrow, leading to an outcome that appears to be foreclosed on the basis of probabilistic reasoning alone.”

You should really read the entire article at NYBooks.com, because this guy had a freaking amazing life.

Experiments in Watercolor

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“I had a dream, the whole world was flat… We went looking for treasure, and fell off the map.”

This is a test piece I did with some new (and old) watercolor techniques. I’ve been trying out watercolor pencils – new sets of Derwent Inktense and Graphitint (water-soluble tinted graphite, which has subtle colors and is lovely). Also rediscovered some Caran D’Ache water-soluble wax pastels, which I’ve had for a while but never really used much. They make a nice clean flat wash on cold-pressed watercolor paper. I used them for the green grass and the yellow cloud highlights above. And I dragged out some old tempera cake paints, which have pretty much always been my old favourites ever since I started doing watercolor. They blend great and they’re cheap like borscht, what more could you want??

I also tried something new to get the sepia-toned feel: ink. Instead of using a dark color like black, navy or purple for shadows, I mixed some sepia ink and a bit of black india ink (straight sepia was too red). That plus a light yellow/orange wash on the highlights, like the top of the clouds, gave it a tinted feel. Now the trick is to figure out how to expand the sepia look to the rest of the series…

Speaking of cold-pressed, the next task is to go back to hot-pressed watercolor paper and see if I can get the same effects. I’ve just never been crazy about all the little dimples and textures in cold-pressed paper.

Are you “arting”? What are you working on?

What they are is like a mosaic

From an interview with Neil Gaiman at the DC Books & Authors Blog:

And with Mr. Punch and Violent Cases, people would ask me if they were autobiographical, and I would say, “No, they’re not.” What they are is they’re like a mosaic, where all of the little red squares are autobiographical. But the red squares aren’t actually the story. You know, they’re just little bits that I put in with the rest.

This is How It Goes

I am a better editor than a writer, I think. Or rather, it comes back to the “writing is re-writing” thing.

I write a scene and it’s usually pretty bad. And I write another scene and it’s also maybe pretty bad. And by ‘bad’, I mean it all seems too contrived. You can see the strings being pulled on the puppet. But then I write a string of scenes and I see how they fit together, and I start working out the mechanics of the plot.

After the first draft, I start over again from the beginning, filling in scenes, linking up frayed ends and lost pieces. I go back over the previous scenes and edit them before I settle in to write a new one. I will, without second thought, lift and discard scenes wholesale if I find they don’t honor the continuity of what came before, and what came after. When they were a bad link. Even though I might have liked the scene itself.

Then I let it sit for a while. How long? Long enough to forget. Then I re-read it.

Some things stick out as needing a fix immediately. Other things need to be felt out more carefully – there is a feeling of something being off, being not true – a wobble, a disturbance in the force. I follow the threads back in my mind – not reading, just thinking – until I figure out which ideas need to be excised. Which parts need to change.

I go back over this process many times, until it all rings true.

Sometimes, if I’m lucky, the pieces that I wanted to fit but couldn’t will fall into place in the re-write. Sometimes new things show up and surprise me with their realness. That’s when I know I’ve got it right.

We Apologize of the Inconvenients

Calendar of Tales - MAY

So after a weekend marathon, I finished my illustration for Neil Gaiman’s Calendar of Tales. I picked the month of May because I love the story and I like drawing things that are almost but not exactly like real life. Or just plain really weird. Either or.

My favourite Neil Gaiman book is also The Day I Swapped My Dad for Two Goldfish (although I think the original cover kicks butt over the Scholastic cover), so there’s a little goldfish homage in there.

You can read Neil’s story and see other illustrations here: Calendar of Tales. And here’s a link to the illustration on the Calendar of Tales website. (The shortcut links aren’t working for me in my Safari browser for some reason, but you might have better luck.) The whole project is sponsored by Blackberry.

Here is a post on my tumblr about how the image came together.

On the way to Grandma’s House

Little Red Riding Hood by CFrey

Right now I’m working on an illustration for Neil Gaiman’s Calendar of Tales, but here’s a sketchbook scan to keep you busy. This one always made me chuckle because it’s a perfect example of life imitating art… I was sitting in my parents’ kitchen, doodling in my sketchbook, and my parents were having pretty much this exact conversation. So I flipped to the page with the drawing on it and showed it to them, and of course they had to laugh.

Red No 2 - CL Frey

That is one mean lookin’ granny.

See the rest on Tumblr.